Weekly Tarot Pull - 6/29/26

Howdy y'all! Sorry this one is a little late in the day, I'm really struggling with my energy levels right now. I don't know how long this post will be but I'll do my best to be as insightful as I can be.

We got a two-fer today! The first one:

• Card: The Devil
• Deck: The Antique Anatomy Tarot by Claire Goodchild
• LWB description: The Devil is all about the destructive behaviors that keep us tied up in bondage. This card brings with it the seven deadly sins: envy, gluttony, greed, lust, pride, sloth, and wrath. These attributes are, more often than not, self-inflicted, but the Devil can also point to an abusive person in your life, so be sure to keep your guard up. With the Devil the only way to be set free is to break these patterns and begin the healing process, but it can be hard to pull yourself away from the things that give you instant gratification. Remind yourself that you deserve nothing but the best, and if you do the hard work now, the payoff in the end will be great.
• Keywords: Bondage, addiction, seduction, sex, vices, codependency, enslavement, passion, overindulgence

And the second:

• Card: Four of Coins
• Deck: The Antique Anatomy Tarot by Claire Goodchild
• LWB description: The four of Coins appears when you hold onto resources too tightly. This type of attachment is not doing your health any favors. This card is a reminder that material wealth requires flow. Money becomes useless if you aren't paying for the things you need. You may be concerned that someone is taking something from you, or believe that they aren't as deserving as you are. Beware, this type of materialism keeps you in an agitated state that holds you back from acquiring more money and experiencing positive interactions in life.
• Keywords: greed, materialism, agitation, conservative, fear, obsessive thoughts

Wow, okay, called out again this week. These two popped out stuck together, with the Four of Coins on top. Usually I would've just stuck with one card, but I felt like I needed to keep both. And I definitely did need to hear the message from both cards.

I think the overarching theme here is that I need a better grip on my finances. I am SO bad about impulse buying things. I have to watch myself when I play mobile games because I will rack up some major bills if I don't keep myself in check. I use DoorDash way more than I really need to. I don't have a job, and I only get less than $200 a week from unemployment (of which I just reminded myself to file my weekly claim so I'll get paid), so I really need to cut back on my spending habits and make better, cheaper choices.

For a little while I was doing a lot better. We would buy plenty of groceries for the week and I would make myself sandwiches, frozen TV dinners, and bake chicken patties and smiley fries in the toaster oven. But as the months have dragged on, I've gotten lazier and sick of everything in the fridge. We mostly buy things for breakfast and dinner now, and I order takeout for lunch. I don't even get up and drive to the restaurant, which would save me so much money. it's just so much easier to have it delivered.

And that's where the Devil sinks its claws into me. I don't know how much of it is mental illness and executive dysfunction, and how much of it is just pure laziness, but most days I struggle to actually move about and take care of myself and the apartment. I try to do at least one thing a day, like a load of laundry or dishes, or cleaning something in the bathroom or kitchen, but some days I can't even do that. I'd much rather order food delivery and rot on the couch than be productive. I know that the more I move around, the more used to it I'll be and the better I'll feel. But god, some days it feels damn near impossible. And then I feel guilty because my husband comes home from an 8 hour shift and asks me what I've done today and I have to tell him "nothing".

Finances are kind of just a big point of contention between my husband and me. We don't outright fight about it, but he's constantly having to remind me that we can't be spending a whole lot right now until I find another job. I know he's right. It still sucks though. There are so many things I want and need to do that require money and I can't do them right now. I also have like, no object permanence of money? I don't really know how to properly describe it, like it's more of a concept than an actual thing to me, especially because 95% of our funds are in the bank so we never actually see them physically. So online shopping, food delivery, mobile games, and other things of that nature don't always feel like I'm spending real money. I think that's part of the reason why I'm such an impulsive buyer.

In all honesty I probably should have waited to get my septum pierced until I had more disposable income. Thankfully it wasn't just crazy expensive, and we were out of town on a trip, so I don't think my husband was too upset about it (I ran it by him before even booking the appointment and he didn't object), but yeah, I probably could've saved that money and used it for groceries or something. I dunno.

I guess that's kind of where the four of coins is coming into play as well. I'd been wanting to get my septum pierced for years now and had never had a good opportunity to do so until Thursday. So on one hand, I probably should have kept the money for something more important, but on the other hand we were looking for things to do to kill time while in Nashville and that seemed like the perfect thing to do. And I really love how it turned out! I don't blame people for wanting to do small, fun things even when they're broke, so maybe I should extend that sentiment to myself, within reason.

Money seems to be tight for the majority of people right now. I don't know what's going on in other places in the world, but I know in good ol' Murica, our economy has gone to shit with inflation and unnecessary wars and the like. So maybe it's okay to do a couple of fun things here and there. Fuck it, the world's on fire anyway, right? Might as well make the best of it while I can. I just really need to be careful about not overspending on stupid shit I don't really need. But a fun treat is fine in moderation. I just really need to make sure I stay within moderation!

Well, I think that's it for this week, folks. Lemme know your thoughts and if you resonated with anything. See y'all next Monday!