Went through my old stuff and found my diary from when i was 11. pt2

(monday march 30, 2023)

So i feel so guilty right now. My mom brought up harming self (sh) and I wasnt doing it but she thought because I texted her something untrue and right now it brought me back to when i first got youtube and there was a trend where you would unscrew the sharp thing from a pencil sharpener and press it to see how long it would last. And i did it and ofc it cut me and i was scared bcs i was like "HOW WAS THIS A TREND!?" and i just realized thats SH designed as a "trend". I am scared to tell my mom because she would take away my Youtube and lecture me about "saftey" when i didnt even know!! Then, she would tell everyone she's ever met about it then take away everything i love. But anyways, im taking a bath rn so i hope i will feel better after. bye!