what do u do when you lose ur whole irl friendgroup..?

burner acc cuz i dont want my friendrewind friends 2 see this. typing has been altered 2 hide myself even more.

i lost all 3 of my irl friends over really stupid mistakes i shouldve fixed before it got 2 this point. two of them have blocked me b4 i could actually apologise and show i was gonna change. i dont rlly have a friend social circle i hang out w/constantly anymore and i dont know what 2 do. i keep finding stuff i think theyd like or wanting 2 show i listened 2 one of their cristisims by talking more but i cant cause im blocked and kicked from the gc. 

i keep going back and 4th from "i miss them and i want my friends back" and "they dont get 2 see my change if they never believed i was going 2" and its rlly messing w/ me.

ofc they were allowed 2 block me, and i'm not fully mad @ them 4 it. i understand why. i'm just upset cuz i told them i fear asking 4 time will end badly and they told me it was fine to ask 4 time. so i did when it mattered and i got blocked b4 i could properly apologise. (which is something im unfortunately still learning how to do properly, as well as take accountability). i jus want my friends back, or @least 2 know that if they ever unblock me i can send them the apology i was trying 2 write.
i wanted to rlly show them i was going to change. so i stopped playing minecraft and sat down for 2-3 hours looking up how 2 apologise properly and also writting it up b4 fiving myself a break 4 lunch

im greatful they told me what i did wrong tho. ive had friends jus leave and not say anything b4. i'm taking what they said as legitimate concerns and ig i want them to see it, especally if my words arent always trusting.

im not asking for sympathy or kudos. i want genuine advice @ what 2 do, im so lost and so confused without my friends. i dont go out much unless i have 2, and i very rarely go out alone. i mostly went out with friends cause it felt safer. its been less than a wk and i already feel more isolated than eva despite being out once and socialising with not only classmates but 2 stangers. idk how 2 make friends at my age (18-21) anymore :((. i havent been friendless in ages.
pls dont ask 2 b friends!! i dont want new friends right now. i dont want my main acc known, this is a burner 4 a reason