what is wrong with everything

lately ive been experiencing several problems. my grades have been slipping because of my own laziness and putting other things over it. ive been putting aside college applications until now and im worrying i wont be able to get in in time and thats stressing me out. ive been trying to get a job but nowhere seems to even open my application. a good friend of mine has recently fallen out with me over a bad situation. people are spreading rumors at school about me. also, someone i had a falling out with started going to jiu jitsu with me so i have to deal with him. and, my main outlet of hardcore, is basically useless because of the beef ive had with people in my scene and i cant go to shows as often. ive done better being healthier at least since ive gone fully plant based tho. for some reason, my parents dont seem to want to even talk to me about my problems and when i bring it up, they say that i should be putting my passion and frustration into filling out applications. and im still grieving the passing of my dog i had had since i was 3. i dont know why this is happening and it all seems to be getting worse. i genuinely cant deal with this and all my outlets are basically gone. all i have left is staying home and playing video games and being online. i cant take all this