What to do…

So I just had my first day of training &… hell no.

So over the weeks, I’ve been confused on what the company wants me to do. I kept bringing up being a cashier & that I’d specialize in that rather than doing something with food & I still got something with food anyways.

So since they don’t want to hire a cashier since it’s full, they instead wanted me to do deli & bakery. 🫩

I don’t even know if it’s full or part time, because I said one, they gave me the other, then they say another thing. What the hell is it?

Out of desperation, I attempted to find solace in my bakery training. Not long into it, I found that I knew I would be getting fired pretty soon. I pretty much have no use there with how bad I am with food. & today, my mom finally admitted it. I AM BAD WITH FOOD.

So now that I know that this isn’t going to work out & I also would feel insanely down, I don’t want to be that guy that quits extremely soon, but at the time I applied for that job, I didn’t know myself. Though it's only been a few weeks since I applied, in the last few days I’ve really gotten better at understanding who I am as a person now that I don’t spend my time in the bad addiction I have. I know I shouldn’t’ve taken that job, but I don’t think it was stupid of me to go through with it, considering that I learned something about myself today.

I’m really going to be taking the words of my brother & dentist more seriously over the next few days. My brother wants me to be happy & my dentist wants me to find something that I don’t depress over everytime I have to go.

Right now, I’m probably going to cry myself to… maybe sleep? Or at least be sad to myself since I almost never cry even when I want to.

Also, with me having to walk, a 6am shift is just too early for me & I most likely won’t make it.

Remote jobs & maybe something music here I come!