Its been like more than a month that im avoiding at all costs going to the university because i was sick for a week, so i had to stay at home, but being alone makes me feel like nobody ever liked me, so i need to stay as far as possible from them (?)
I dont want to sound like a fucking crybaby or whatever bcs when i go to classes and interact with my friends everything comes back to normal, but it is so sad that i cant even be happy far from others. idk how can you believe in something thats true but only sometimes in certain context and then not anymore
This week has been pretty hard for me. Last night i decided that i would go to uni but i couldnt even sleep, i wasnt on my phone or doing shit, just laying down waiting and when i decided to check the clock it was already 4 a.m (i usually wake up at 5a.m lol)
I struggle a lot with some social rituals or whatever people call it since im neurodivergent but bro how can i be the wrong one all the time? I mean, i can take 3 week days to answer your message but most of the time im always the one to text first. Idk i guess i'll have to keep my only 3 friends that live far as fuck and deal with it
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Opal
I’m neurodivergent too and I’ve experienced the same thing. tbh, I don’t really have any advice for how to fix that, but I wanted to at least tell you that you’re not alone with that feeling and you deserve to be talked to.
Omg thanks! That makes me feel better since i never saw anyone with this same issue :,)
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