why am i always sad..

This is my second blog and ts is gotta be soooooooooo longgggggggggggg (tw; death threat and bad grammar)

I've been struggling this month with my own mental health. When it's the first of the month, I thought I'm gonna be okay because this month, June, is my birthday month, right? 

But I was wrong, this month has gotta be the most exhausting month I've ever felt. 

You wanna know why? Well, I guess it's because of how I struggle with myself and other ppl. I have friends who don't even feel like friends!! I also have a friend group?? How ungrateful I am. But I just feel not comfortable with them (my friend group) because we actually had a big fight that made them give a death threat to me (it was actually my fault lol dw) 

and i was isolating myself from by deleting my mssgs app and not attend class for weeks. 
It's actually felt good, but I can't do that for like forever; I need to attend class for my grade, too. 

I don't get why I am always feeling this empty and lonely.

I hope this is just a phase and I'll get over this situation and get better!! ˙◠˙