why does this always happen?

i feel really numb. My mind is like really foggy and im starting to think i shouldve have made this a blog bc thats it. i hate this feeling, of walking through the smoke of mental limbo. im here but im not, im typing but parts of my brain are shut off. my eyes arent even focused. the music is keeping me centered, somewhat. ..................................................................................................................................................................................................... . . . . . . . . . . . . . .