Why is it so hard to get a bf? (mlm)

I feel like its impossible cause i have severe social anxiety and i dont like being around ppl. The thought of being around people, i dont know or just people in general makes me sick. Ive tried pushing myself through social situations like going to mini concerts and just events in general and it makes me feel so bad. Ive had to deal with this for years and its just gotten worse over the years. It made me, fail school, hard too fit in and make friends. Thank fuck for the friends i have now. I keep on talking on how i want to leave them and be alone forever but i know deep down im nothing without them. Im practically invisible without them. I feel like if i can somehow get over my social anxiety then maybe i could get a bf. Cause lets be honest im not going to get a bf by just sitting and looking pretty. I would have to go and talk to someone. Not just sitting by my self smoking ciggeretts or being high. I would have to put the effort into it. cya losers.