why that one person changed your life

have any of you ever felt the sweet release of understanding why a certain person was never meant to stay in ur life?

if this was a year ago, I would probably be writing about how absolutely DEEEEESPERATE I was feeling because of a boy I was in love with. I used to be willing to give up ANYTHING if it meant I'd never lose him. now, after years of pining and hurting and yearning and trying to be worthy of his approval, I understand that maybe he wasn't meant to stick around at all.

the truth is that catching feelings for this person woke me up in a way. I became a happier person, excited to wake up and see him again. now I'm just excited to see where life takes me, and I've realized that maybe that was all I ever needed from him.

I hope he likes wherever he goes next, and regardless of any suffering, all I feel for him now is gratitude for having made me feel alive for the first time in a LONG time.

and yes for all of you cool goated people that was an "end of august" ref !!