At 2pm you're normal functioning human. Drinking water, answering text, pretending to pay attention in class, maybe even eating chips for lunch cus '' that's what counts as a meal''. Life feels easy going and manageable. Shit right at 2 am idk what it is for you but for me my raisin a different univers. At 2 am idk at you but I start to change my entire personality thinking I'ma wake up to that 6am alarm knowing dang well I'ma hit the snooze button right as I hear it ToT. Then I think I might have motivation for the gym and to delete all social media and cleanse myself. As I think these things its weirdly honest and trustful feeling. No loud people just yourself and the ceiling maybe music and your own thoughts. It diffidently sucks when you remember that embarrasing thing u said in the middle of the class in middle school during ur weird ass stage but ay at least everyone's been there. WHEN I TELL YOU MUSIC HITS DIFFRENT especially if its a and like slipknot, Korn, Linkin Park, and or limp during the day you just listen to the music to pass time, get pass that hard school day. At 2 am you suddenly understand the pain in there guitar and you room becomes a cinematic masterpice for no reason. Led lights on and that one headphone that works , that fan that makes that straight but weird noise. Dramatically looking out the window like a indie movie noody understands. Suddenly thinking what am I rlly doing with my life? am I actually happy and could I actually become famous one day out the blue... what gets worse is when that 2:30 confidence hits and you convince urself you can fix every problem you got then and there. New mind set. new me and the next morning you wake up at 12pm like a ghost looking for cereal. But rlly why does 2am mess with me like I'ma be different? It almost feels like the one time I feel like I got everything figured out , but my anxiety gets louder because distractions are gone. But again everyone does this ovethinking at unreasonable hours one in there life almost like a old tradition!
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this is so real. I have a theory that most people suddenly get bursts of motivation or enter a state of sometimes petulant self-awareness because you've likely been in the silent, dark surrounding area of wherever you are for so long, you begin to process things differently. it either feels great or it feels horrible. maybe it has something to do with human evolution-- considering homosapiens are social creatures, being alone and in the dark increases vigilance biologically and it might just make you start thinking differently because you're on such high alert. I hope this made sense. I yearn for Arizona iced tea at 2 in the mornin.