winter time

im very excited for the upcoming holidays (thanksgiving, christmas, my birthday www) but ive been feeling really down for some reason , it doesnt really feel like a depression nor quite just a fleeting sadness either . maybe im just feeling a bit drained from having a few social events i didnt want to attend , but it is what it is i guess for now（￣︶￣)

i dont usually feel this tired or quiet , especially with my family, and im just afraid how it'll effect my friends and school effort . a part of me really just wants to sleep forever in my bed and never move again, even with all the greatness there is right now .

i even dont want to eat my snacks or really make meals as before , but maybe thats a good thing for someone like me www (￣﹏￣；) 

i slept all day today and yesterday , halloween sucked , and i had to attend a birthday for a family member i barely know or care about much. its nothing to truly complain about , but ill see it through regardless. i must endure till christmas !