Worth

I clench my fist that makes my knuckles crack–

If only I wasn't so foolish, if only I never existed he would be here.

There is something missing in this life, and that's him.

Only one time I ever thought of death by curiosity, I'd try to punch myself.

Once or twice–

But I realize that I should be thankful to exist.

I wouldn't meet my people, try delicious food or even feel happiness if I didn't exist.

I learned that not everything can go your way and that's fine–

Everything will be fine. 

The only time it's not fine was when I lost him, the man I was going to marry–
The man I was gonna die with. Gone forever, young for eternity.

He told me that he wouldn't make it to old age and if he died young, I shall keep going.

To pursue my life to the fullest.

Sometimes, it feels like I can't keep going.

Without him, it felt like I was nothing.

Though I was wrong, I cried myself to sleep.

I felt useless and thought that nothing will save me–

That was before I found the ring he was gonna propose that night.

Now, that it fulfilled my needs knowing I found the most important thing of my life.

It reminded me of him, precious and delicate. 

Never have I seen something so gorgeous–

He was the only man who cared.