Writer's Block - Sadnut

every day when i come back home i just cant put anything on paper

iron commanders is very much meant to be a real book series

i want to publish all the shit i put down and make money on it so i can then make MOAR and live by the art that i love making

except

i cant make anything

when im in the commute to go to school i can scribble shit down but not at home

i find myself cursed with extreme apathy

i just want to get home and sleep

i dont talk to people at school anymore, ive actually started wearing a covid mask because idont want to show my face anymore

when im home i boot up kingdom come deliverance

it helps me numb because i have to focus on not dying bc of how ridiculously difficult fighting is 

and when im not playing kcd im writing but now i cant write

i dont know what to do 

im so scared of talking to them i dont want them to hate me more