writing let my Neutral in inner self out

On a daily basis i cant regulate my emotions specially when things don't go as i programmed them to be, either  good or bad, but when i start writing everything change, i can program everything i say and read it too even if it's online where most short content is consumed the moment i get 2 or 3 minutes a day to write, i feel better.

Im just afraid this will wear off like all the things i like or liked in the past, after a while i get confident at one hobby and start to get caught up with all the competition and expectations, i guess when u start caring about something ,imagine our future with them  is natural.

There was an app back then that i used to write on but it got eaten by the Ai industry too, there is a challenge every week which seem fun but at the end your work is readed by Ai to tell who is the winner so...

idk