Y CANT VINN NOTICE ME?? :(

Im so happy I can say his name on here because nobody from my school knows about this website. I liked Vinn for 3 freaking stupid years. Now I'm at the highschool with him. He's a year older than me, yah, who the fuck cares now dudes. My old best friend, Jade, dated him. I was literally Angelica from Hamiltion... :( Like I would be a third wheel and it would be so sad when I saw them hold hands and flirt because I liked him. AND STILL DO. But, I would NEVER ever steal him from her. Hell to the no. I'm a bitch but not a monster. To be honest though, after they broke up. He hasn't dated since... THANK GOD!!! I HAVE A CHANCE!! But guess what... IM TOO DAMN SCARED DUDES. IM TO SCARED TO TALK TO HIM. Like if I could I would... HE BECAME SO DEPPRESSED :(. And tbh I still love him even though he looks all deppressed and stuff. SIGHHHH Why can't he like... He doesn't even have to date me, he could just idk.... TALK TO ME??? Or even notice me?? PLEASE. :c Like, I know. I'm such a loser rn talking like this but can you blame me? I've been silent for 3 years and I don't even have anyone to talk to about it. (I swear if he has a friendspace account... I highly doubt that though.) OH BTW before you come at me for liking my best friends boyfriend, she cheated on him a lot for attention. So like, its justified because shes a bad person. Like I remember I was third wheeling them and on the way home I was freaking crying. I really REALLY just wish he did notice me. He did look at me when I was late for math class though because he was too and he has the room next to me. Like i'm sorry but I would die for him to compliment me or something. But no. Im suffering, alone. I won't love someone like I love Vinn.