yapping (day 1)

‼️TW: mentions of EDs and body image issues‼️

well. im back!! 

okay so. most of my friends struggle with an ED, sadly. i have offered to help in any way i can, but that requires hiding that i am BALLS deep in an ed myself. thats pretty hard to hide, especially at hangouts with them, so i think some have caught on. i would have no issue with this if EDs werent super competitive most of the time.

dont get me wrong, i love all of my friends and i dont want to lose them over something none of us can control anymore, but when some found out our friendships became toxic and extremely competitive. obviously that drives me deeper into my own addiction and im assuming its the same for them too.

any advice on how to deal with this is appreciated as always!!