yearning - blog #4 ━━ . °‧ (*꒦ິ꒳꒦ີ)

wow this is only my 4th blog what i thought i had a bajillion already this is  directed but not to anyone here i just felt like writing this like i’m talking to them   kinda ok sorry cringe cheesy kill me  

yearning has got to be one of the worst feelings ever because what do you mean i’m doing daily basic normal tasks like making food, laying in bed, ANYTHING and the only thing i can think about is you. if im laying in bed i do that thing yknow like when you can imagine it so well you feel like its real and im just imagining youre right besides me and we are cuddling and we smell like eachother and when im making food and im alone in the kitchen ill pretend youre with me and we are having some goofy conversation about something random or maybe youre talking to me about your comics or any media youve found and ill tell you that in 5th period we were doing presentations and this duo put jason todd and a ton of other superhero dc stuff in their presentation and i was trying to hide my smile in class because it reminded me of you and now im remembering when i was on the way out of my old house when moving and i had this scenario in my head that was so strong i thought it was real the other day and almost brought it up in convo with you but like it was like id ask my dad if i could say bye to you one last time and id hug you as hard as i could and we would kiss and i wouldnt care if my dad saw and we’d look into eachothers eyes one last time and i’d  actually make eye contact with you and then we’d have to drive away and i wish kind of that i just could tell you everything without feeling embarrassed and idk why i even feel embarrassed but with you i always feel like its worth it i just like want you to know how much i love u .  whenever im out of the house too i always think about if you were there with me and stuff and i feel like im talking way to much wow ok holy ramble ok lol that reminds me of when we were walking home from the lake river idfk what it was anddd ok im done bye i kinda hope no one reads this