Tell me abt ur first love/crush !!

Mine was in 6th grade but I can't recall everything except that she basically ghosted me all my life :P

You don't have to say their name, just here to chat cuz groups don't work for me so I just post forum topics to start conversations ≡(▔﹏▔)≡

i never had one which sounds kinda crazy but i'm going to a new school so i'm curious if there'll be anything

We knew each other since we were 3 and I've liked him for nearly 10 years!

He also probably doesn't like me but oh well.

Mine was in third grade and he was my classmate xd i liked him for 2 and a half years and we were friends but I never told him i liked him. Since he moved to germany we havent even talked so yeah i just stopped liking him then. It was not a big love i just liked him for having similar interests and good sense of humour (he was the class clown) and also we were pairs on PE (every girl got a boy pair on PE depending on their sport abilities and we did the two ppl excercises together) and yeah it was so awesome i could be with him like every time, we even went skating together and to each others birthday. Last year he visited the class after 4 years and he changed a lot, he looks like a pmo and his personality became so different so yeah he didnt even said hi to me. But yeah I remember that love so detailed

It was a girl who was terrifyingly similar to me, almost as if she was a replica. Maybe it’d be better to say she is human incarnate of my ideal self. I’m still in touch with her and I’m not romantically attracted to her anymore,  but I deeply enjoy her company

cant remember my first crush but my middle school one I think about often, hes the goat for telling me about ptv

I always pretended or faked I had crushes on some people when I was very little because I was a little attention seeking rat so I would say my first REAL crush was in 7th grade. She was a new student and very sweet but also super badass so I tried being her friend but then she started talking to other people.

The first one was misread limerence and the second was misread platonic feelings, so the only one I've had is the current one, which is probably just projection.
And her?
Her eyes are like dirt and dark coffee. Her voice is like bitter honey. Her lies are like sweetened scrawlings of ancient past, long lost in translation and hyperbole. Her mask is like plastic, adaptable and clean-looking, and yet entirely fake. Her truth is like ice burning my skin in the suppressing heat of a desert. Her past is like a moldy mirror, so similar and yet entirely separate from my own fragmented reflection.

the first time ive ever actually felt myself blush around another person was this weird kid in a grade above me.

he was kind of an outcast in his grade and was sometimes mocked, but something about his lanky build, insane height, and glasses really captivated me, along with his voice since it was just SO deep?? i mean, i later found out through his sister (my friend and SO SO sweet) that he actually deepens it on purpose in public.

i remember first seeing him in the library (since i went there to read everyday during lunch), and immediately felt my heart sink or something, and i vaguely said to myself, "wow he looks like will toledo, hes cute." he sat next to me one time in the library, and my face was so hot, it felt like i had a fever. i even remember a girl looking from me to him before walking off, i ended up being friends with her later in the year.

though, i later found out he would say weird stuff and fat shame people, which made my crush on him immediately crumble away. i thought he was cute, but i dont agree with his views.

Now, this is going to be a long story... it was freshman year of high school, and I had spent all year trying to get a boyfriend while failing miserably. Since all my friends were getting one, I felt like I needed to have my One True Love. So I would sorta force myself to have feelings. I had become good friends with this guy; he seemed so cool and funny and awesome, and we had 2 classes together, so we talked A LOT. He had a gf for a while, but then they suddenly broke up. And then I realized I had feelings for him, so I decided that he was the one I was gonna score!

I try flirting with him (I'm terrible at flirting...) and I begin to notice that he's acting strange around me. He always wants to be around me all of a sudden, he always picks me first for our games in theatre class, and there was this ONE thing that made me realize "Dude there's no way I'm actually gonna have a chance with him." 

It was the day of the pope election in biology class, we had a sub and they didn't really GAF about us that day, so the guy and his friends were all huddled up together at their desks watching it on the guy's phone because they thought it was so cool. Then, this dude INVITES ME TO SIT RIIIIGHT NEXT TO HIM because "I'm catholic too." Ok????

I confess my feelings to him at our annual theatre party (and no I'm not in theatre anymore) and he says yes! Everything seems perfect! 

When we're together, we're so awkward. Something feels off... I always compliment him and give him gifts, and he just kinda awkwardly stares at me half the time. I just thought he was really really flustered...

Then around 5 months in he breaks up and I go PSYCHO trying to get him back because I really thought this was true love and we were supposed to be together right.

When I finally get over him, he says he's gay now and I decide to go back to my lesbian ways once more because that's what I truly am.

Having your first love be a lavender relationship in disguise is... an interesting experience...

my first crush was this guy i met in like 2nd grade (middle school). So back then i REALLY wanted and emo friend or partner (any gender) and then i saw him. We became friends so easily because we had a lot in common, and he was really fun to be around, i liked him so much.  Fun fact (ig, i was afraid he would die because he kind of like preserved animals (dead animals) because the liquid used to do it is like so dangerous oml)... Anyway, he became really toxic suddenly, and mean to me, then i did something really reckless... he convinced me to send him pictures of myself. I felt so disgusted at myself for doing it. Filled with shame, and then the bastard published them in like a presentation and uploaded them in the school platform. I had to change schools because they were calling me a slut, and every guy mocked me. Never saw him again though...

had a close friend of mine i met in middle school that i really really liked but just kinda sat on the feeling for, until one day where i slyly mentioned it to her and she didnt mind the idea

...THEN a month later we broke up. she was aromantic and didnt wanna lead me on. was bitter about that for quite some time lel

my first crush is dead to me.

my first love however was an experience that lasted 2 weeks. dont laugh but i met this girl online (lets call her balena) and dated her and at first she was nice to me but after a while she just barely talked to me unless she was horny and i felt uncomfy at times but i felt like i was responsible cuz i felt like i lead her on sexually because i simply existed

she broke up with me despite the fact that she was the one that asked me out, we stayed friends, i introduced her to my other friends, then she dated a girl in the friend group who funnily enough lowkey treated me like how balena treated me except it spanned a couple of months and she was wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy creepier compared to balena and we never dated 

anyways the girl's account got banned for reasons and then while i was still going over the whole "your first love broke up with you in 2 weeks" thing i was fucking desperate and also had no self respect so i just begged her to date me again (for context i was mid-late 14 to early 15 cut me some slack please) and then we dated for a week then we broke up again