for sure black star by radiohead. it speaks to me a lot as a mentally ill person who's been through several relationships and all of which have failed in some form. my longest relationship was about 2 years, and during one of the worst moments in my life, i decided to break up with my partner at the time, but we still remain good friends.
and i listen to the lyrics of this song and search up the meaning and the moment it clicks, i begin sobbing like crazy.
"troubled words of a troubled mind
i try to understand what is eating you"
and i so desperately want people to get that i'm struggling. i'm so sick of hiding what i really feel deep down. but at the same time i don't want to be a burden, a heavy load. and especially not for someone who i adore, because what if after everything i tell them, they don't want to be with me anymore? what if i say too much and weird them out? they're probably not ready for such a huge commitment yet. to carry this burden with me. but god, i'm so sick and tired of being alone and carrying everything on my own.
a helping hand wouldn't hurt. moral support wouldn't hurt.
sorry for the long ass comment but this song truly means a lot to me in so many ways. i'm grateful for music and its existence. without it i don't think anyone would be here today.