I'm going to do a quick deep dive on my friendship with my friends but feel free to just tell me yours!
AD:
i tend to be more skeptical or cautious around her, and thats because im scared of losing her as a friend even though we've been friends for several consecutive years now--and consider each other besties-- since i can't usually catch onto her jokes, sarcasm and satire comments (holy run on sentence). even though our friendship is stable and i panic more when i make mistakes or make things awkward since i generally have trouble holding a conversation super well.
for example: i have had several times where i screw up in a conversation and i genuinely panic for several days that we're not friends anymore or she doesn't want to be my friend anymore at all over tiny misunderstandings of language.
the most emberrassing times (or times i felt most humiliated that i didn't catch on) was when she said something in an aggressive tone which was actually sarcastic and i thought she was in a bad mood and didn't want to be around me or anybody and that i was a nuisance (im crine run on sentences--).
there was also the time i said something really random in a conversation that had no relevance and she kinda just looked at me like i was a weirdo (which i always am but i felt even more like a weirdo in that moment) and it genuinely made me think that she saw me as a creep or someone not worthy of her time.
there was also the time we were hanging out and i kinda dissapearred into my room for a bit and she was leaving and kinda slammed the door. i panicked for the next several days and kinda fell into an unstable crisis on whether my friends actually, genuinely, like me being around. i panicked because i wasn't spending time with her (with to me) = "jasmine doesn't care about me"--. which isn't true, i very much care about her but i tend to overthink which makes me go into this endless cycle of panic on if im still friends with AD a lot.
this also makes me make myself try and relate to her interests. this causes me to watch shows she likes, find out her preferences and listen to her recs on things to try and prove that i care about her and that im at least a little worth being around.
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i make myself involve myself with her interests in hopes of not ruining our friendship.
CMW:
didn't know her as long as AD but almost instantly clicked. she thinks very similarly to me, making it easier to hold a steady conversation. we have very different interests but i love hanging out with her because she speaks her mind and does things that make sense to me that some other people may not do (telling me why they're not talking/when they're thinking about something) purely because she knows my preferences/thinks about me.
Someone I can be in the same room as for a week on end and not get tired of. she reminds me very much of my younger self, discovering social media and old trends i've already seen. she had very limited screentime access for the majority of her life, causing her to be on the side of the internet still stuck in 2020. this means everything she shows me ive probably already seen.
unlike AD, i don't feel like i have to prove myself to her because she clearly expresses why she does certain things, making it easier to understand what she's thinking (since im ass at fascial expressions).
she remembers things about me that a lot of people don't which makes me actually feel valued as a human because i don't tend to get acknoledged a lot. i often feel forgotten or uncared of, making CMW's observation of what i like really special to me.
i get excited when she remembers my favorite flavor of boba or why i have trouble cleaning my room. even simple things. i feel like she's somebody i can rely on and the type of person i'd run away with because she catches things i don't.
she has a much better sense of common sense, making hanging out with her for long periods of time fun since she helps give me information about things i didn't know about before.
her being closer to me also means i can be a little more honest about my opinions, making us occasionally argue. while very rare (like once in a blue moon), it makes me feel comfortable around her. we never argue about anything big and it usually settles very quickly and ends in apologies and explanations.
can spend several consecutive months with and still come out besties
AY:
kinda similar to AD except i dont feel like i have to prove myself to her
she's quite quirky which makes certain things hilarious
i don't have much to talk about her since i can't exactly describe our dynamic. i've known her the longest but still struggle to fully have conversations with
i swear im still besties with her tho i just cant make more paragraphs since im getting tired (it's 1 in the morning+schoolday).
alright, i have more people and the grammar is absolutely horrible but its at night so you can't blame me. how about you guys?? (i'll probably edit this later)
i love lelouch!