this morning i had to wake up WAY earlier than usual just cuz i had a dentist appointment. it was the ABSOLUTE worst ughh. first they had to take a bunch of x-ray's of my teeth, which sucked bc i have a VERY sensitive gag reflex, so it was basically try not to puke challenge (LEVEL IMPOSSIBLE).
lately ive been feeling so nauseous but i think its also combined with how much anxiety ive been feeling lately. like i just have no appetite at allll.
its mainly my nerves about whether or not ill be able to socialize like a "normal" person when im at college. my self esteem has felt kinda low recently too. I want to be known as a kind bubbly person but it feels hard when im constantly critiquing myself and thinking negative thoughts. my biggest fear is that it shows through and that other people can tell.
recently work has also felt so dull, i dread coming in even though when im actually there its not that bad. im just so overrrr everything right now.
aaaa i feel so sleepy
at least tmrw will be a good day for tanning
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salix
i agree, it is sooo hard to overcome negative feelings about oneself! I try to distract myself from them by being busy and working hard, but that's not always a foolproof method. :(