im sick so didnt go 2 skl tdy
i tried canceling my LNATs (law exam) for tmr cause i got a viral infection !!!11!! but they wldnt let me cancel, they said i wld have to repay to take another which no! bc its so expensive! so i have 2 go anyways. the meds make me drowsy so hopefully i dont zzzz in the middle of the test (i wonder if drinking a monster to keep me awake will intefere with the meds)
BUT that means i can look for band shirts tmr cause ik theres a store nearby, im gonna get a nirvana shirt (i hope someone asks me to name 5 songs at skl), and see what else they have! >.< i would love a Mineral - The power of failing shirt but no way they have that so guess I'll have 2 get it when its back in stock on the bands website :<
anyways here r the diys yay
Also! i wanna start vlogging bc a. I need 2 better my social anxiety, which is why im tryna blog more cause even ts is scary for me
and b. i want to get over the fear of my face/being percieved
idk if ppl will watch! but if ya let me know >.<!
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Dust the mouse 🐁
How you can have social anxiety online
idk if this is a genuine question or not but I'll answer like it is
its like js the act of talking to people and being percieved in general is horrifying, whether its irl or online I KNOW that people are there, and its like js a really really bad fear of being percieved and judged
like for example, everytime I text someone new online its like a burning feeling in my chest, feeling like im abt to cry, and js like "damn ur such a loser they're gonna judge u, jump u, gang up on u" etc so ya :'3
by Ganymede; ; Report
oh and in relation to the vlogging itself, filming in public is BOUND to flare up social anxiety, ontop of posting it online where everyone can see and judge. It just feels like a constant cycle of "Im gonna be judged I'm gonna be judged I'm such a loser I'm such a loser" But i want to get better so yeah ^^
sorry for the long reply!
by Ganymede; (edited); Report
Don't say sorry for no reason.
Social anxiety i have but in irl now I can't get leave house without headphones .hmm but online is different you can just ignore or block people that annoying you is easy . Anyway people gonna judge you ,for good or bad always gonna happen so don't be scared people gonna find a way to judge. And continue do vlog, gonna make you better .
by Dust the mouse 🐁; ; Report
Thanks, also south park peak lolz. ^^
I guess its js different symptoms or causes? I know I can just block people or turn of the screen, but it doesn't solve the symptom itself(?) like its just the act of being judged and perceived or that i MIGHT be. Its similar irl. You can (kinda) ignore someone judging you, but just the fact that someone is or even just the idea that someone MIGHT judge you is already the damage.
I'm sorry to hear abt ur struggles, Hope we can both get better :3
by Ganymede; ; Report
You right ,and thx
by Dust the mouse 🐁; ; Report