Entry #1 , my hands are freezing, but my heart is warm.

Despite me putting my hands into a bucket of ice cold water, I will always keep my heart warm no matter what.

What exactly does that mean?

Jeez, I barely know myself. . .other than the fact it means that despite the unhealthy situations I put myself in, I will never let that affect the warmth and kindness inside my heart. 

I do try to be kind no matter what, I really do, but sometimes it feels like that ice cold water is freezing more than just my hands and fingertips. I will never let it fully freeze me over though.

It's hard to actually understand what I mean by all of this though. Why should I be kind in a world that has given me nothing but hurt? 
I don't understand it, yet I still choose to be kind anyway. I will always let my heart be warm instead of cold.

sometimes I use that warmth to make a #yummy pack of buldak 



mb atp I'm just saying random bs LOL