Making my first blog post completely ranting about two things kind of related
I deal with hypomania and recently ive been getting better at recognizing it, but this time it slipped right past me. I noticed that this past week i have slept very little, i stayed up two nights with about one hour of sleep, as well as no appetite.
Theres this buzzing under my skin like bugs crawling in me
Ive been feeling very anticipatory, like my life is suddenly going to change for the better and all these good things are going to happen to me. Im going to get the best job ever, have so many friends, be so hot, and its all gonna be so easy because im amazing and amazing things happen to amazing people.
This kind of false, out of character confidence is what made me stop and realize "...oh, im hypomanic probably"
I also made several social media accounts ive never considered before (including this one lol). One of those was tumblr which brings me to this-
MY TUMBLR ACCOUNT GOT TERMINATED WTF
Its honestly for the better cause i made and posted to it while literally in a mental episode but damn, i didnt even last a week there. I opened the app and it was completely blank and when i tired to log in it wouldnt let me, finally i tried on the computer and it hit me with the dreaded page
Posting this at 7:14 AM as i havent slept again
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discmaan_
I’m sorry you’re going through all of that :( The fact that you were able to notice the signs and recognize ‘wait, this might be hypomania’ is actually a really important step. The lack of sleep, no appetite, that restless buzzing feeling, and suddenly feeling like everything is going to change can be really overwhelming. Try to be extra gentle with yourself right now and focus on the basics if you can getting some rest, drinking water, eating something small, and maybe taking a break from making big decisions or creating lots of new accounts while things feel intense.
Also RIP to your Tumblr, getting nuked right after making it must feel so frustrating, but maybe it’s a blessing in disguise if it was created during a really intense moment. I hope things start feeling more stable soon. Take care of yourself ʕ•ᴥ•ʔ