like not in a mean way of pushing people away and stuff, more like not being able to actually keep up with them!!
I always feel so bad when my friends ask me why I dont text them back and stuff . I never mean to ghost them or seem like im not interested in interaction, I just cant talk for a long time and have this crippling fear they may be talking to me out of pjty, which causes me to slowly isolate myself eventually
I think of myself as so annoying that everytime someone wants to hang out with me my mind goes "do them a favor and dont punish them with your presence for their existence"
am I too neurodivergent to appreciate all the love around me or is this just a reaction to childhood socialbullying
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rhythmheaven
I dont think I feel worthy of all the love and care I recieve from my social circles
am I ungrateful for not knowing how to recognize and love something so many people crave
qwails
YOU GET IT!!!
I struggle a lot to make new friends and actually keep them because I'm the type of person who needs other people to text me first before I say anything... but I'm pretty sure it just comes across as me not wanting to talk... but I love talking... so it's just counterproductive... (〒▽〒)
I'M ALSO TERRIBLE AT KEEPING CONVERSATIONS GOING!!! AHHH!!! I just wanna rip all my teeth out thinking about it!! I feel so bad cause I feel like the other person is doing all the work to keep the friendship going.
I too have the same fears... Lots of experiences from my childhood turned me into a shy person who doesn't share unless somebody asks. I always feel like a stupid dog pawing at my friends pant legs while they're busy when I update them about my life unprompted. Like gosh.. here's what I'm doing, I guess. Hope you don't mind knowing. Don't kick me outside pls.
I used to believe I was the most embarrassing person on earth so I legit would only communicate with reactions for a period of time JUST to avoid saying something humiliating... like what? I don't even know. But the real ones keep mining for the gem that is ur personality. TRUST!
dude u get it so much omg,..,., the dog thing is embarrassingly real
I really hope we can heal from whatever has made us this way<3
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X
Self-rejection is bad mkayyyyy
Just talk to them, if they really didn't like you, they would make it clear! ;P
People who don't like you don't talk to you or agree to ever hang out with you.
sadly, im a highschooler . teenagers are terrible at expressing how they feel about people lol, which is why im so concerned about people interacting with me out of pity
and many people who didn't quite like me have been my "friends" and even my partners (well situationships because im afraid of my parents finding out im queer but u get the deal) . I completely get what u wanna say but I struggle accepting it so much T_T
by rhythmheaven; ; Report
Just pretend you are actually the skibidiest rizzlerina in town who is more gucci than a pogging billionaire on little saint james island! Ez pz lemon squeezy bruh cuh.
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You're welcome. 😎
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