I actually don't know how to start this but i always feel like my friends are not my friends actually and all me friends have there own best friend except for me .
which make sense since i moved schools two years ago before that i was home schooled for my whole life. and everyone in my current friend groups knows each other for 5+ years if not more.
i used to move every 2-4 years so i know how to make friends mybe but nothing close that lasts
i immediately noticed that the day something really Exceptional happened to me and i wented to share it with someone but when i opened my phone i didn't see anyone that i can talk to about it.
like we never talk outside of school or when we meet and hangout sometimes and i'm always the one who is planning it which gets really tiring sometimes.
the thinis it's not like i don't know anybody i literally talked to helf of our school.
nobody actually text me rendomly or ever if not in a gc. i literally have no private chats.
and the person im closest to is not even in my school so we only meet every months because there very busy too.
and when i finally made a really close friend they confessed to me which was fine but when i said no they stopped being my friend even though i thought we were close friends i really trusted them with a lot. i told them stuff nobody knows. which i'm mostly very secretive ig no one actually knows how many siblings i have who i grow up with i just don't share stuff like that.
i mean i'm very grateful for all of them, i just wish i had a best friend that we can do fun things together, and sometimes i think i'm the issue because my expectations are to high mybe. and then i thought i was too stupid to ugly so i got all As and change my looks but still nothing changed.
i just want know how u guys make friends that are close and last for more then two years.
(english is not my first or second language and i can't be bothered fixing my grammar and spelling^-^)
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LiaX ⋆˚꩜｡⋆
Ok I relate to a deep level I changed schools like 2 yrs ago and I made a friend group from a friend but I wasn’t friends with anyone in the group I just was with them bcz of the Mutual. and later on, me and the mutual are not that close, so I’m in this group where I’m mostly left out, I make ideas and another person takes credit , I always make the hangout have some kind of fun activity. but iv noticed that no one really gives me credit and we dont have even have similar interests like I sat with them to just sit with them… im gonna be a senior next year and im thinking of changing schools and starting fresh tho it seems everyone nowadays is grouped as u said and im still stuck I really don’t want the past to reoccur and I’ve got to add I was quiet growing up till like 8th grade so idk
I have one friend but she’s like 6 hrs away
I just want a good friend I don’t even care to be in a group•~•
Idk if any of that made sense but I’m hoping it did , really happy to see I’m not alone in this
i got what you mean honestly im still on the same boat so i can't give any advice but changing schools won't change anything probably? you will only be the new kid again which is fun for a while until it isn't. and for me too i have one Exceptional friend that is far away too but having different interests should never be an issue because good friends listen and care about your interests like with that gurl she knows i like miku so she got me a miku figure in my bday and ik she likes love is strange so i got her the game.
I think you should talk to them about that if they really care they will change because i felt very left out in the friend group i was in before so i left and meet my other friend group even though were not close they are not bad people, and i know you can find good people just try talking to other people in different groups it helps because you won't ever have to sit alone in lunch or something if you do that.
I love your pfp nana ate , and talking to you makes me feel very seen so thank you💞
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Well I’m still holding onto the thought of changing school but I’m not sure yet + my interests aren’t that popular where I am so that’s one reason++I also would love to be the kind of person to explore new places w friends and a ton of ppl my age they either can’t or just don’t want
And I hear a lot of ppl talk about how they made they’re closest friends outside of school like in uni or even after uni so I’m not losing hope and u shouldn’t either :)
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