I was sick, or am I still?
Let's just stick with was for now I think.
It fragmented my reflection, my mind with filled with voices. I might be better now, but sometimes my reflection still feels fragmented and empty.
"Oh you sick sick child. You will never be what you used to be."
I feel like this subtle nagging in my brain will never pass. Eventhough I kind of starting to see a future. I will always feel the marks this left on me.
"Noone will ever love you smth like you normally."
Maybe, is this punishment? For what I might have done? Everyone tells me I didn't deserved it. Why can't I feel this?
I feel better lately.. But sometimes I get these feelings. They don't last long enough for me to feel important noting to my therapist. Like this was my life for years, doesn't feel unusual.
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Set a timer every day, where no matter how you feel, you will set aside 3 minutes to appricate all the things you DO have. Being alive, clean water, food, family, friends, tech, entertainment. Don't focus on anything negative that you don't have or want. Just what you have that is good. All your positive features. This will train your mind to stop hyperfocusing on negativity and will prevent negative cognitive spirals in the future. :3
You got this girl God is with you. But just remember, usually the teacher is silent during the test.
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Hi dear! You are not the only one. I struggled for the past years with mental issues, voices and really bad thoughts. You are with God and he will not let you down!