fuck my chungus life

teeny vent but i freaking hateeeeee living in a super rural area because i literally can't do anything dkshbvfjkdj

i can't get service for my number in a place this isolated and i need my phone number for a bajillion freaking things like my bank, my therapist's office, my PSYCHIATRIST'S OFFICE, my doctors and my local clinic and its genuinely almost impossible to reach me so by the time I get word of anything it's way too late.

I've been trying so hard to make money so I can leave but I can't really do that when I need a call for everything ithisdiadjnshjxcnm

I went through so many providers but they're all a freaking dud I'm sick of this >:( :'(

not to mention grocery and RENT is so high in my area how can I ever expect enough stability to relocate. I am also mentally ill so that's only another obstacle. 

and everyone eats all of my shit when its for MEEEEEEEEEEEEE<<<<<<<<<<<< like the gluttony of it all irks me so bad because I NEED IT to gain weight because I'm almost dangerously under but if I speak up suddenly I'm a problem 😃 

genuinely when does this end because I'm way too stubborn to end my own life and I don't know how to stick things through until it gets better :(