I have a fear of communication when it comes to things I'm upset about, when I'm confused I tend to lie because I know I have to say something but I don't know what. I let things pile up and then I unload all of my issues and accidentally treat my friends like therapists when I don't even notice it.
My ex-friend doesn't think I'm going to change, they've blocked me everywhere, got some of their friends to do the same.
But I've been working on myself this whole time. But the same things keep happening and I honestly think it was all because of them.
And I don't mean it was their fault for everything, it was very much mine. But I think what they've said to me and how they act caused an influence for me to start things.
Only one person is still believing in me, from my friend group.
I've been thinking about myself, talking to myself in my mind, taking all the time for myself as I can, and I still need to work on everything more.
See my therapist more, read books about controlling myself, study things online.
Or maybe
I need to go to a psych ward.
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lmnzz99
hey, i believe in u, and its even better that u believe in urself too. the 1st step to change is at least being aware of whats wrong, everything after is (no sugar coating) difficult. iv been working on myself too and i know exactly how u feel, like u might just be stuck like this. we wont.
"I've been thinking about myself, talking to myself in my mind, taking all the time for myself as I can, and I still need to work on everything more.
See my therapist more, read books about controlling myself, study things online."
thats like REALLY good already. i know its annoying to hear this but deadass just keep doing that. the more aware u are of urself, the more u can change. ur old friends dont matter now, if they arent willing to stay at the worst of it, why the hell should they deserve to see u now? and watch u grow? and other people WILL influence u, positive AND/OR negative, its a huge possibility that they were part of the issue. i remember when i was doing horrribleee and looking back now, i was also surround by toxic and unhealthy people
my final say is kep doing what ur doing, u might not notice it now but u will grow, we will both grow
i hope it made sense, im sorry i jump around a lot and im sorry if i misinterpreted anything or said anything wrong or anything