I am finally ‘disgustingly educated’ in something

I had to talk to someone about a post I made on here a day ago (I know who probably reported it, it’s fine, I’m not mad and I didn’t talk about that person because I understand that I was wrong so if you’re reading this don’t worry) with a woman who came to my school. It was really fun actually, I showed her my art and I made her laugh a lot it was genuinely amazing. I got to specifically talk about my interest in personality disorders and the ones I think I must have, like my growing suspicions of having ASPD. That’s the curious part.

I can actually talk a lot on different disorders, specifically cluster B ones. I’ve searched all of them (aside from HPD, but I still know a bit about it) quite deeply because, at one point, I’ve thought that Ive had it. I always look for answers to why I do things, to why I think or feel the ways I do, and it’s led me to be very interested in the most psychiatric part of potential disorders. I corrected the woman multiple times on outdated terms and talked about ableism towards people who have cluster b disorders and talked about how some disorders are incompatible with others and it made me realise how educated I actually am. I love putting things into boxes so of course I’m good at diagnoses. I’ve had the skill of researching different illnesses/disorders all of my life. 

I think I’m going to look into this more. Most of my information comes from listening to people’s experiences with whatever disorder, and reading over NHS pages, but I think I’ll invest in more professional research. This is really fun. I feel proud of myself for knowing about all of this.