as i mentioned previously, i have been seeing one of my husbands coworkers while weve been separated. and yes, i know thats terrible, but i cant help it, i have feelings for him. the thing is, hes so wishy washy if you know what i mean. one day he wants to hang out and the next hes thinking about my husband and howd he feels. i dont know, i just feel so out of it because i cant with the back and forth. i know what its like to not feel loved and i dont want that again. i want someone who wants me, chooses me and is there for me. i dont want to be put through the same situation i was with my husband. and i know i should be taking my time with things and im trying. but the truth is, weve kissed multiple times and weve done other things too. not sex but damn near. i know that sounds horrible and i dont know why i dont feel bad about it either. maybe because ive been so checked out for so long now? im not too sure. i just need a drink and to get some.
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s.c.o.t.t.i.e
I don't know the situation with your husband, but I do understand the friend trying to one day consider his feelings and the next only considering yours. It seems like he's between a rock and a hard place, because he is seeing his friends ex-wife while also trying to maintain a friendship with that same friend. That is something that can become very messy for a person, and put all of you in an awkward spot. Some people can ignore their friends feelings, which is what he seems to be able to do some days, and some people just can't.
I can't speak on what exactly to do, but what I can say is that you deserve someone who loves you. You deserve someone who wants to be with you all the time. You deserve to be with someone who wants YOU and ONLY you. If they are going back-and-forth and not committing, it means they don't really want you, and that's a sign you need to take your exit stage left.
Sending you all my well wishes!
NevermoreGhost
girl, just be happy do not give a fuck about that ex bastard of yours you deserve more!