i guess or ig

not really in the mood to pull out shit that actually means something deeper (not that the rest of you get it either way, which is fine, idc)

i have this thing going on for years where i put posts up on my instagram and take them down pretty soon, i mean of my face or whatever.

it probably has to be about my self esteem and shit, it has improved since.. whatever, but not that much i guess? 

the only post i have now is about a concert i went on january (greatest time of my life)

i think i don't even have photos of myself in my phone, maybe 10? but that's about it, i don't think i like myself to have something about me in my own phone. i don't find me ugly, i just don't like me that much.

i always say i'm my own #1 hater, and that's about it tbh. pretty accurate.

anyway, i think my self esteem has gotten better but it definitely is still a little low and i wish i could change that somehow. but i don't think i'll ever like me or what i do or how i act (with exceptions) or whatever.

it's honestly exhausting, and sometimes i get too insecure because of this, i just uploaded a photo but honestly the last time i did it was like a week ago? and the last time before that was.. months, almost. 

idk, shit happens i guess.