i still haven't wrote this appeal letter to my college as to why i got suspended yet. i have to turn it in before next year i think and part of me doesn't want to even though i know i have to. as i say over and over again college was never my choice. it was my family's own. i never wanted to do nursing as my career or do this in general. i don't have anything figured out and im pretty much lost. in fact i feel so left behind in life when i see my other peers moving forward in life and being successful. my life is just beginning so why do i have to know what to do right away? why do i have to just feel like i have to have everything figured out? maybe for other people they do but not for me. hell i didn't even think i was gonna make it this far. i wanna be honest and say on the letter that it was never my choice and how im pretty much doing this for my family and how my mental health wasn't great while i was doing those classes because there was so much pressure on me to succeed just for my family to be disappointed at me in the end. it's like i was set up for failure because of them. i wanna say that on my letter but at the same time what is there to even say? my gpa is low. i failed my general classes and i don't see myself going back to college again but my mom does. even though my financial aid got taken away and the 2 years of free college is gone my mom is still willing to pay for general classes even though it's expensive asf and she's already struggling financially as is. i don't want her to pay more for these classes when i don't even know what the fuck i want to do for a career. it doesn't make any sense going back and yet i have to not because i want to but because my family does. i feel like im stuck in a fucking loop and i can't get out of it. how long will it be until i disappoint them again? probably sooner or later. im just tired of this shit.
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s.c.o.t.t.i.e
College graduate here, you do not need to have it figured out just yet. Some people are able to know right away what they want to do for the rest of their life, and others they don't until later.
There is no time limit or falling behind, everyone goes to the beat of their own drum. Everyone has their own path that they are taking. Everyone has their own will of what they are destined to do in life and when they will do.
Here's my recommendation: since financial aid has been cut, you're worried about your mom paying, and you're unsure of what you want to do in life, I HEAVILY recommend going to community college. If you go to community college it will be significantly cheaper, and is much more manageable. There you can also try different major classes and find something that you like.
Once you figure out what you want to do, a majority (80% or more) of colleges take credits from community college. This will make it cheaper in the long run because then you're only taking classes for your major and will get done at the college sooner.
I'm not saying do that specifically, but it is an option that may help you if you have those factors to worry about. Of course, talk to your family, school counselor, and what is best for you.
Wishing you all the best!!