idk what disorders i have

i have the capability to have so many disorders. i know im a teenager so it's expected of me to be a little all over the place, but ive never seen someone like myself aside from people with certain disorders. mainly aspd, szpd, and npd. i won't talk about the other disorders i might have like osdd, cptsd, all of that stuff. i dont think i have ALL of these, i think that i only have (at the most) 3 disorders that make me act the way i do. if i have 4 i am in denial of that.

i relate to aspd because i have almost every symptom. i have a hard time respecting people's boundaries and them themselves, and i have a level of dislike for everyone i know aside from my grandmother. i do not care for authority and for the law; i don't do anything that would definitely get me arrested but i do have a history of stealing/shoplifting and feeling little to no guilt. i have harmed animals (specifically bugs, no larger) in the past but that was from ages 10-11 and ive stopped now because what's the point. i like animals. i don't really feel remorse or guilt for anything, i moreso just feel mad that i did it in the first place. i also do think i manipulate people to some extent but i never do it on purpose. i do try and avoid causing harm to people. 

i relate to people with schizoid personality disorder because i am completely and utterly asocial. i like having one friend and then a few acquaintances. i do not yearn for romantic or sexual contact in the same way others do -- i want it, but i do not want the other person, only the feeling of being romantically/sexually wanted and the physical feelings that come with it. i have never had a crush in my life, ive never had over 2-3 friends at any point in my life, im misanthropic and try to avoid people where i can. i do like being in social situations from time to time because it makes me feel normal, but i dont like talking to more than one person at once. even though i do have some level of social anxiety and anxiety in general i could not give less of a shit about what the people in my school think about me. 

and finally i relate to npd because i think of myself very highly (part of why im angelkin) and hold myself to a very high standard. anything that threatens my image, whether that be public or personal, must be met with aggression. surprisingly i am able to remain rational during narcissistic collapse and keep it away from others, though i do feel very ... irrational anger. ive had a hard time admitting that i'm wrong in certain situations, i often put the blame onto others (trying not to do that), and once again i dont feel empathy/remorse. i also have day to day moodswings of thinking that im the best/worst. i do good things to keep the image of me being 'good' rather than out of the goodness of my heart, though i am nice to people/animals normally sometimes. i just did something for someone else and that was the latter. 

vulnerable taboo ass post i promise im a good person i just also have 90453409580495 personality disorder symptoms . i hope people dont see me as evil abuser 2000. im hoping to get a diagnosis soon.