I want to interact with people, but either I get FR from ppl under 18 or from people that I'll never talk to (the latter also applies when I give someone a FR, we either don't talk or I say 1-2 things, get left on read and move on)
I mean, I deadass have ONLY 1 actual friend that I made here and I talk to commonly
then it comes to blogs...
sometimes I either dk what to post, or I post something and nobody gaf
I mean sure, mines are "high" despite writing them without thinking about them, just letting words flood my mind
and I can't or just won't post about shit that I like, since, most ppl won't gaf
I would love to post about dark souls or smt else
but no... sometimes I fail
and I'm in a weird relation with this site
I'm somewhat obsessed over it, checking for the smallest mention, also cuz it's like... the only social platform I still have, since I FINALLY quitted tiktok... for the 2nd time ever, but I hope that I'll never return there, and I don't use IG often
at the same time.however, I got bored of it, which isn't smt new, since it happened to me when I used to be on Spacehey, causing me to delete 5 accounts... guess that's why they implemented an invite-only system so my ass couldn't abuse account creations
so basically, I'm in this weird position where I don't care about this place, yet I don't wanna leave it
it's just that...
I feel like a ghost who's lingering in a place aimlessly
I barely talk to people outside of blogs
I barely FR people
I barely get to know someone
I barely do shit
and I still linger here
happy at the slightest interaction I got
guess that's what happens when you neglect socialisation and end up with 0 friends irl, since I finished high school and idk if I'll ever meet my only 2 buds from there
but idk... does someone else relate?
or is it a me thing?
give me hope in this damned place...
please.
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Lucky Strike
Can relate.
However, I think your reasoning is flawed. This reads like you already have a conclusion about people you contact or who contact you and you're working backwards to justify giving up.
I'm going solely by what you've typed here, but it sounds to me like you inherently expect the very next person you talk to or frq to be your next best friend. And then when they fail, when they ghost you or just appear to not match your effort or your expectations, it's another soul-crushing defeat. Am I misreading you?
Cos if I'm not, my admittedly unsolicited advice would be to lower your expectations. Not everyone is gonna have the time nor inclination to devote to you, even though you may feel the opposite - that you would drop everything for even the slightest interaction.
Also, I'd remind you about our prior discussion, how one genuine friend is worth a thousand phony "friend whores". I hope this helps. And if I misread you, I apologize.
I do agree with you here actually, not everyone is always available 24/7.
I already have made a nice circle here out of all the friends I had here and it's not really huge as most seemed quite inactive.
But yeah, I'm happy with what I had here and I don't really look much for others attention.
And also you could just pretty much check out the recent blogposts to talk with other people and also have them as a friend here.
by Cysper04; ; Report
C-A-S-I-O555
Yeah it’s hard to talk to people here sometimes because of time zones and stuff going on in their lives and forgetting to message u. What I do is that I focus on other things in my life like drawing.
WELL YOU GOT SOMETHING TO FOCUS ON ATLEAST
All I do is mostly sit on my phone and maybe watch youtube since I ain't got no social app to scroll on, and no games either cuz I'd get bored the other day and delete them
I do however physical stuff, mainly feeding and giving water to my animals, since I live on the countryside
but outside of that, I just play dark souls 3...
basically I repeat all days with nothing new to them
so yea, shit in my case sucks...
also I had a feeling that you'd reply
by blvkmoon; ; Report
Yeah I’m online a lot now bc no school. Also since you live in the country you can walk around, idk. In the city theres little nature around and everything costs money to do so I stay inside.
by C-A-S-I-O555; ; Report
feel like leaving in a city sucks... since I start university at the end of septembet/beginning of october, I'll go live in the capital which... can either go well, or completely suck
and it's good that I'm not the only chronic online folk here
by blvkmoon; ; Report