My friends became even weirder...

I just went camping with my class yesterday and came home today and I had so much fun. I actually thought I wouldn't have fun, because I do not really like my class, but it turned out to be really fun! Except when we had to sleep...

So when I came there I put up my tent with my best friend Ava who's in my class and we put our tent next to our friends and tent nearest us were Ava's boyfriend Ben and Peters(my old crush) tent. So we kind of joke about how me and Ava would sleep in their tent, like a big sleepover. Now I have just got over my crush with Peter so I thought that was of course fine to do as I would probably sleep next to Ava. I was a bit mad at her that you can read about in my other posts, but it was okey for me to do as she is still my best friend and she wanted to do this. 

Now if you haven't read my other blogs, Ben had been very annoying recently towards me and Ava didn't do anything to stop it, so that was most of the reason why I didn't want to go. Though when we hung out in my tent playing cards, Ben literally slept on my knee...I thought it was weird. I knew Ava was too far away from him, but still he didn't need to rest his head on my knee. Ava didn't mind tho so I guess I'm overthinking that part. I still think its a bit weird as I'm not so close to him and do not like physical touch except if its with people I'm REALLY close with. 

The whole day I actually have fun with my friends and enjoy my day. It was very good to feel included, something I haven't felt in a while with that friend group. Then me and Ava want to watch a movie so we ask the others and only Ben wants to join, so we go into his tent and watch the movie. Then when the movie is over Ava is already half asleep so we actually end up sleeping in their tent. Peter joins when the movie is over and I'm the one who is laying on his side, so he literally jumps on me pushing me to the side. So now Im sleeping in the end, Peter beside me, Ava next and Ben in the end. So I end up laying face to face with Peter which feels weird as I just got over him and I didn't really know what to do. Not just that but Peter takes up the whole space and as I said I dont like being that close to people I'm not close to. 

I try to make him move, because the tent is literally in my face. Im literally that close to the edge and it was really uncomfortable. But he doesn't budge...I try to move him, but he is too big for me to lift. So I tell this to the other, I said something like help I can't even move and Ben says that I should lay on top of Peter...what. It makes me really uncomfortable and worse Peter doesn't say anything about if I should or not. Like I might overthink this part but it felt like he was okey with it, which is really weird because he thinks I still like him...

I of course dont do it, so we lay there for a little while before starting a conversation and Peter goes up to get his AirPods. When he comes back he bends himself taking more space and making his face almost facing me down there if that makes sense, which is even more uncomfortable as he is only a few cm over my kitty and he starts to talk, so it feels like he is talking to it, which is even more weird. Now more happened, but eventually he goes up again and the whole night I can't sleep. It was just a weird ass situation to be in and now I dont know what to think anymore. It feels like I'm overreacting tho because of how normal they all were, but the whole situation was just weird. Maybe they just think we're closer than what I think, but I did not like how they were all acting.