I just went camping with my class yesterday and came home today and I had so much fun. I actually thought I wouldn't have fun, because I do not really like my class, but it turned out to be really fun! Except when we had to sleep...
So when I came there I put up my tent with my best friend Ava who's in my class and we put our tent next to our friends and tent nearest us were Ava's boyfriend Ben and Peters(my old crush) tent. So we kind of joke about how me and Ava would sleep in their tent, like a big sleepover. Now I have just got over my crush with Peter so I thought that was of course fine to do as I would probably sleep next to Ava. I was a bit mad at her that you can read about in my other posts, but it was okey for me to do as she is still my best friend and she wanted to do this.Β
Now if you haven't read my other blogs, Ben had been very annoying recently towards me and Ava didn't do anything to stop it, so that was most of the reason why I didn't want to go. Though when we hung out in my tent playing cards, Ben literally slept on my knee...I thought it was weird. I knew Ava was too far away from him, but still he didn't need to rest his head on my knee. Ava didn't mind tho so I guess I'm overthinking that part. I still think its a bit weird as I'm not so close to him and do not like physical touch except if its with people I'm REALLY close with.Β
The whole day I actually have fun with my friends and enjoy my day. It was very good to feel included, something I haven't felt in a while with that friend group. Then me and Ava want to watch a movie so we ask the others and only Ben wants to join, so we go into his tent and watch the movie. Then when the movie is over Ava is already half asleep so we actually end up sleeping in their tent. Peter joins when the movie is over and I'm the one who is laying on his side, so he literally jumps on me pushing me to the side. So now Im sleeping in the end, Peter beside me, Ava next and Ben in the end. So I end up laying face to face with Peter which feels weird as I just got over him and I didn't really know what to do. Not just that but Peter takes up the whole space and as I said I dont like being that close to people I'm not close to.Β
I try to make him move, because the tent is literally in my face. Im literally that close to the edge and it was really uncomfortable. But he doesn't budge...I try to move him, but he is too big for me to lift. So I tell this to the other, I said something like help I can't even move and Ben says that I should lay on top of Peter...what. It makes me really uncomfortable and worse Peter doesn't say anything about if I should or not. Like I might overthink this part but it felt like he was okey with it, which is really weird because he thinks I still like him...
I of course dont do it, so we lay there for a little while before starting a conversation and Peter goes up to get his AirPods. When he comes back he bends himself taking more space and making his face almost facing me down there if that makes sense, which is even more uncomfortable as he is only a few cm over my kitty and he starts to talk, so it feels like he is talking to it, which is even more weird. Now more happened, but eventually he goes up again and the whole night I can't sleep. It was just a weird ass situation to be in and now I dont know what to think anymore. It feels like I'm overreacting tho because of how normal they all were, but the whole situation was just weird. Maybe they just think we're closer than what I think, but I did not like how they were all acting.Β
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dude. that is genuinely so weird, idrk what to say as like idk, I can't relate whatsoever.
maybe try to make your stance clear somehow. so like be super *friendly* to them so they get the idea that you don't want anything more with any of them? in my head that's the best action to take here but I'm not 100% sure and how you can do that.
like super friendzone them. or you could just call them out on their shit but personally I don't really think I would have the courage to do that and I'm assuming by how awkward you feel, I also think that confrontation isn't probably something you'd want to do.
overall, my advice is to just super-friendzone both guys (this will also hopefully ensure your relationship with Ava doesn't break down if her bf really was flirting with u) and if you feel like its not working or if they go too far, don't be scared to just call it out. either it'll get awkward asf, which is better than your boundaries being crossed, or they'll just deny it and (probably) stop/play it off as smth else as an excuse. or, best-case scenario, they come clean.
if I'm looking at this situation as 'glass half-full', if ava knew about your (previous) crush on Peter, they might have told this to ben and the guy and hatched a plan to get you two to date. however what Peter did was weird asf and if he's chill with doing that, I wouldn't rlly recommend u to get with him.. but I am just a stranger on the internet who doesn't know you or the guy. but from how you described the interaction, you seemed uncomfortable and I don't think anyone should date another person who makes them feel that way.
I know I wrote quite a bit but yeah, hope it kinda helped??
Thanks so much for understanding!! Way better than Ava really, but I'm definitely going to stop them if they ever cross the line like that again, but it's hard because of the situation. And you are actually SO right about Ava telling Ben lol. I actually wrote about in another posts because I was pissed. He wanted to ship us together, but I do not think he knows I dont like Peter anymore...
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