i feel like im not a person most of the time
i usually get infantilized by my family and i dont have a lot of friends
all of my friends are always busy or would rather hang out with their other friends
whenever i am with my friends, i feel alien and benign (like im a ghost merely watching everybody else interact)
according to one of my friends, im kind and considerate, but im pretty sure that might be my only personality trait (other than that im obnoxious even when im trying not to be, but im not sure thats a trait rather than a mere flaw)
everybody has something that makes them unique (sass, being funny, bold, brash, etc.), but i dont have anything
i feel like im autopiloting my life and i dont know what to do, i dont feel real
i dont have anybody to really talk about this with, i havent seen my friends since summer break started and im feeling like a waste of space
if anyone reads this and has advice, please do tell me
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annieapplepies
perhaps you’re looking for recognition and understanding? i recommend trying to analyze yourself to figure out if social isolation is hecause of the people you surround yourself with or if it’s a flaw that interferes with your relationships.
i think it’s unhealthy to depend your sense of self on the people around you. gaining criticism from others for insight is alright, but you are a real person with complexity, regardless if people see that in you or not.
when it comes to social isolation, i believe its both a flaw (i have been trying to get over it for years) and the people i have surrounded myself
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KratosPS
I think it's somewhat normal to feel out of place. Also I'm sure you have something that makes you unique. We all tend to be hardest on ourselves and can't see what others see.
Have you tried reaching out to your friends? See if you can go do something together? People are really bad about reaching out or noticing how others are doing. I have done tests on that and wouldn't hear from anyone for weeks if I stopped reaching out. So send them a message.