pathological liar

i'm a pathological liar. 

i lie a LOT, and not always to a crazy extent. online is where i dont or don't usually lie, but irl? i don't know half of my life because it's made up out of fake habits i told people as an excuse, or a routine step i said i do to appear more put together. it's the tiny things at eat at me most.

they'll compliment me, not knowing it never happened. i might as well have a diary where i count and keep track of these fake facts. it's kinda weird because i'll see posts on tt or smth abt how their life would crumble if a particular secret got out-- and for some reason i'll think that i relate to it!

i do, but don't at the same time?

i lie, and if all the lies and their truths came out, people would probably turn on me. yes, i lie that much they probably would.

but at the same time: they could shrug it off and say that i just panicked.

here are the lies from today:

1. i added kale and yogurt to my morning smoothie

2. i woke up 30 minutes ago

3. i went to bed at 9 last night

3. i'm almost done with my crocheting project

4. i have a plan on how to organize my room

5. i have waterbottles in my room because i keep forgetting to bring them to hula

6. i put the dishes in my room in the sink and cleaned them

7. my legs don't hurt from hula

8. i had my cozy string lights on for the past few hours

9. i turned off my ac when i was out of the room

10. i remembered to work on my chore chart

11. i'm listening to a murder podcast

12. i brushed my hair this morning

13. i showered earlier

14. i still work on my diamond painting when you're away

15. i have a really really really late father's gift i accidentally left in california

16. i don't need to do my laundry since i have enough clothes

17. i'm still dedicated to working on my cyberdeck

18. i brought my waterbottle to hula

life is crazy brah