The Art of Situationships

I'm a 19 year old girl, I've never really been in a relationship and I have no desire to date anyone as of right now with the current political climate and everything going on. Sometimes I think I use that as my excuse, because the truth is- I just don't think I have it in me to put in effort to make a relationship work. I don't want to think about someone else and how what I'm doing might affect them. If that makes me selfish then I'll just be selfish for the time being.

I met this guy a little under a month ago and I thought he was cool, we exchanged social media accounts and started talking, usually when I'm taking to a person and it feels like they want to be more than friends, I shut it down immediately and make sure that, that ocean is fully salted and there is no way in hell I would consider changing my mind. With this one, it felt different- I caught myself waiting for a text back. I did mention that I don't want a relationship, which he also said he's not looking for a relationship but he just wants casual, in my experience casual usually involves sex and that's a whole hell no for me, but I think I may like him. But I only like him when he's texting me. Lemme rephrase that, I think I like the attention(however little it is). Am I lonely? Is that what this is.

XOXO

Isa