for breakfast I had some fruit snacks, mandarins and some coffee!😋 I went out and bought some more food for my room before my appointment this afternoon, hehehe. I also bought some stuff to bring home and treats for my cat😸
I ended up dropping my two pizzas (rip) but a nice lady bought me two more slices and I feel a lot better.😸
the forest fires are getting really close to my community and evacuations may be happening soon and I'm just really worried about my cat (and my family ig) because of the smoke and the fire breaking the power lines, ahhhh.😿😿😿 i'm also worried that my flight home isn't gonna happen due to evacuations and I'm worried that by the time I get there my whole family will have left me (with no key mind you). I'm trying to think positively but I just feel so worried about my cat, dog and my brothers wayyy bad.
a lot of my anxiety comes from world events so having something like this happen so close to home is freaking me tf outttt, but maybe I just haven't eaten enough today. I'll eat my pizzas and see if that makes any changes😓 at least I have something new to talk about in therapy??? I don't want to be stranded in town on my own😿the kidnappers
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oh nooo 😿 I’m really sorry you're dealing with all of this right now. I can totally understand why you’re feeling overwhelmed, especially when it’s not just some random news anymore but something happening close to your home and affecting the people (and pets!!) you love. I really hope the fires stay away from your community and that your family, your cat and your dog stay safe.
Also PLEASE don’t underestimate the power of food when anxiety hits, sometimes your brain is trying to process the end of the world but your body is just like “hello?? we have no fuel??” so I hope those pizzas helped a little. And honestly, that lady buying you new slices after you dropped yours was such a sweet little moment. There are still kind people around even on stressful days.
I’m glad you’ll be able to talk about this in therapy too. Having something so uncertain happening right before travelling sounds genuinely scary, so it makes sense that your mind is going through every possible scenario (including the very dramatic “I’ll be stranded and the kidnappers will get me” ).
I hope your flight works out and that when you get home everyone is there waiting for you, especially your furry babies.
Also… after everything you remembered the most important thing: THE SOCKS ARE STILL FORGOTTEN, at this point the socks are becoming the true villain of this trip. I hope you finally find some comfy ones because the sock saga cannot continue.
Sending you lots of good thoughts!! Take care of yourself, eat your pizza, drink some water, and hopefully tomorrow feels a little less scary
I hope we luck out with the fires too! :'( there's a lot of vulnerable people there so hopefully the turnout is ok🙏
the pizza was very much a balm for my anxiety and aughhh I didn't realize I was that hungryy😩 they had a new topping that I'm having for the first time and I'm surprised that I actually like it. I usually avoid new things but I felt so glad that she got them for me that I ate it and it was too good.😋
I'm going to go browse around some shop after my appointment for another sock quest😤 I refuse to not wear socks tomorrow😡🤬 I'm so glad I ate so I can have the energy to fend off any perpetrators (I'm so weak)😾
by cadey; ; Report
cadey
I FORGOT TO BUY SOCKS