don't know if there's a word for this but a lot of times I feel like I'm not really real or not tethered to reality. like I'm living life on autopilot while I'm off somewhere else, like I have to remind myself of who I am and what my life is all about, and just where exactly I am in the world, like I'm not living in the present iykwimsometimes I'll spend like a good 3 days just doing jack shit while daydreaming until I have a breakdown without knowing whyand I'm just wondering if anyone else fee... » Continue Reading
Ahaha haha cuz cats dont go to heaven haha- Anyway, I played a point and click visual novel puzzle kinda game today and felt like talking about it because it was super cool and underrated! I'll have a spoiler free paragraph for those that wanna play it, and a spoiler paragraph for people like me that spoil everything for themselves (or if anyone out there reading this has played the game.) Also completely irrelevant but I forgot to give my previous entry a layout and now I'm unreasonably upset a... » Continue Reading
like am i even real? am i someone?? what if this is all a dream, what if people actually notice me? i'm very conflicted and confused and really i'm scared because i realize that my actions do really have consequences. i've always known, yes, but sometimes i get Aware of these things in a horrible way. and now is one of those times. why can't i just be happy and flap my hands about my blorbos or whatever why do i have to be a real man& why do i have to even exist??? i do enjoy living but i don't ... » Continue Reading
TW SA MENTION I GUESSnot to be vulnerable, but i really wanna show how childhood mental health affects artSo i was around 10-13 when i first started getting hallucinations, delusions, illusions, etc.I really lost it at church camp where i saw shit floating in the air and convinced myself a demon was attached to me, followed me home, was watching and sleeping next to meA couple years before that specific incident i was also sexually assaulted by someone and never said anythingI didnt know how to ... » Continue Reading
I would seriously make a blog if I knew what I was doing!!! I like literally have a tumblr, but what am I supposed to write??? Like an introduction...? but those are lowk boring as asf (๑`^´๑) Aside from topics and such, I have NO IDEA if I need a laptop or smth??? Or can I just use a tablet or phone or TV orr??? Sigh, could someone assist me por favorᯣ_ᯣ » Continue Reading
For some reason, discovering the band TWRP has felt so much different than discovering other different bands. When I discovered music, I usually listened to a few songs, and just enjoy them before I moved on. But this felt different.I hadn't found them by myself, a friend of mine had discovered the band and I would happily watch the videos they would send. But then one day, a switch flipped when I watched their music video Have You Heard and suddenly I started listening to more and more of their... » Continue Reading