This blog post was previously posted on my old blog page on a different websiteIt was originally posted in 2023, and has been copy-pasted and posted here so that it can be read on my blog here too. TW: Talks about the end of the world, nuclear warfare, and is just generally depressing with a hint of nihilism. Also a bible quote at the end (the poem is not inherently religious)I'm going to spend a bit before the poem here giving some explanation as to what the poem is about and why I wrote it. Fe... » Continue Reading
I longgggggggg to post photos of myself so badddddddd dude I take a selfie and im like "oh! This is a really good photo of myself I look really good in it, I wanna post this"But the idea of posting is so nerve racking, and it's not even that I'm self cautious of my looks, im quite the opposite. It's that even though I can and it's probably fine, I'm scared of like wat people are gonna do to me or something It's stupid but it's really hard to post a photo especially since I really really wannaIm ... » Continue Reading
This is random but idcI actually have such a hard time with this, usually only the men characters though because the woman are like always attractive. My number 1- probably Deadpool I won't lie, the version where his appearance is just like red holes on his body though. I'm also not talking about the live action version. My number 2- Jason Todd but I my when he's ginger, I don't care for when he black or even brown hair. Ginger version is hot. My number 3- I low-key don't know but Superboy prime... » Continue Reading
my dreams often mirror a reality that i want to live with a person who exists only within my notions. and, every-time i awake, i realize how truly alone i am, while everybody experiences the feeling of being loved by that of a significant other. that's why sometimes, im afraid to sleep. dreams often show the things that im afraid may never happen. but, there's duality to it. sometimes i'll be happy to live in a place completely up to my interpretations, because then i'll dream of finally being w... » Continue Reading
today was pretty average but there were a few standout moments. i spent the first half of the day on my laptop watching youtube, adventure time, etc.. then i went to my dads house (divorced parents, i know, shocker) n got sum stuff packed for a trip im going on tomorrow. my little brother has been really into boxing lately and he told me to come outside so i could watch him box our dad XD. it started out fun to watch but then i started thinking yo maybe i could have sum fun hitting my brother li... » Continue Reading
I haven't touched alc in like 2 months, this is the longest I've been sober from that in a long time but ofc the same day I'm making sure my friend actually believes me that I haven't been drinking, my mummy buys an alc I rlly love. I almost went to drink it but started freaking out and now I lowk just dk what to do, I hate feeling tempted every time I open the fridge » Continue Reading