it seems that as the days go on, the more and more I love vampire media, and I love ALL of it, i'm legit about to start watching Supernatural just cause it has vampires in it (・o・;)look, in my defense, vampires are so interesting because they can be used as a metaphor for ANYTHING, the upper class, hidden fears of society, oppressors, oppressed groups, the unknown, ANYTHING!!!!!! THEY'RE SO VERSATILE AND I LOVE THEM AND I LOVE HOW EVERY PIECE OF VAMPIRE MEDIA DOES VAMPIRES ALL DIFFERENTLY ヽ((◎д... » Continue Reading
Complaint number one. I can’t stand it when somebody teaches me something and then doesn’t act on their own information. It drives me absolutely crazy. Why don’t you act on what you just told me? An example, somebody knows a lot about bats. I mean, dude, they have a master’s degree in biology, and their research is focused on bats. That’s their core competency. They tell me about histoplasmosis, this fungal infection you can get from breathing in spores associated with bat droppings. Th... » Continue Reading
Lately I've been having such huge mood swings. For example, yesterday I was having a big major depressive episode and it lasted practically all day but randomly I started being extremely happy. Like more happy than normal. Idk it's kinda weird.Well, other than that, my grandpa was out of town and it was genuinely the best time EVER with him gone. My entire family was sm more happy. We got to do what we wanted for once and it was like a breath of fresh air. While he was gone I did end up dying my... » Continue Reading
okay, okay, I know last time I said i'd post something I never did and vanished off the earth for months, BUT THIS TIME IM ACTUALLY GONNA DO IT, IM GONNA VLOG AND DO A HAUL, AND IF I DONT I GIVE YOU ALL PERMISSION TO HUNT ME DOWN AND SKIN ME ALIVE WITH A RUSTY DULL SPOON, anyways, kinda excited, cause I need some more CDs and sometimes they have really good ones, parts of it might be higher quality cause I'll have to film on my phone and not my beloved digicam, but one of these days I'll try bri... » Continue Reading
It took a lot of willpower to not cancel the appointment, I don't have a great history with hospitals, basically every time I was at one it was for an emergency. Today was the first time in awhile where it was just a simple check-up.As odd as it may sound I'm actually pretty proud of myself, as an autistic person who's very socially anxious being there just filled me with the intense impulse to just leave, but I didn't. I got my blood drawn and will be getting a sleep test bc I've been having pr... » Continue Reading
THE END OF THE SEMESTER IS TOMORROW!!! I HAVE A D, I FLUNKED A TEST AND IT BROUGHT ME DOWN TO A D!!!!! THE RETAKE IS NEXT MONDAY!!! IM GOING TO HAVE TO SEE HER OVER THE SUMMER AND IM SO MADDDDD!!!!!! SHE MADE US DO A 24 SLIDESHOW AND ITS ONLY 5 POINTS WHICH CANT EVEN UP MY GRADE TO A C!!!!!! GOD I HATE HER!! SHE REFUSES TO HELP US IF WE DONT UNDERSTAND GOD I HATE HER I HATE HERRRR!!!!!!! » Continue Reading
no matter what i do, how much time passes, how little we talk, i can’t stop loving the same person and it makes me sad as shit. i come home from school and i cry alone in my bed because i don’t know what else to do. sometimes i’m absolutely sure he feels it too, sometimes i’m absolutely sure he doesn’t. the not knowing has been driving me crazy for YEARS and i fear i can no longer go like thisi feel helpless because there’s nothing i can doi already posted about this but i feel like i can’t stre... » Continue Reading